After giving a sexy makeover to her official Web site two weeks ago, Britney Spears has updated her homepage with a new message to fans.
In a heartfelt statement regarding her recent troubles, Britney gets quite personal about her feelings and insecurities, speaking of the distance she has placed between herself and people she felt were taking advantage of her and her celebrity status.
Perhaps most revealingly, she talks of going to “a very humbling place called rehab,” and confesses that because of the loss of her marriage, she felt “so sad” and “lost.”
In the end, she says she “just wants the same things in life that you want ... and that is to be happy.”
Excerpts from Britney's message to fans:
“It's so funny how many stories are put out there about people. It's like we all want our side of the story out there as well, but at the end of the day only a few people care to hear what is really going on since the bad is always so much more interesting than the truth. I don't know why, but this is so weird to me. I used to be angry at the tabloids for printing horrible things about me, but now I try to just be numb to what I see.
“Recently, I was sent to a very humbling place called rehab. I truly hit rock bottom. Till this day I don't think that it was alcohol or depression. I was like a bad kid running around with ADD ... I realized how much energy and love I had put into my past relationship when it was gone because I genuinely did not know what to do with myself, and it made me so sad. I confess, I was so lost.
“I am having to face a lot of things right now since I have children of my own. A lot of insecurities from when I was little are coming up again. It is like we are never good enough.
“I think it is actually normal for a young girl to go out after a huge divorce. I think it was a bigger issue because I had not gone out in such a long time. I am 25 and I do still have a lot to learn, and I am going to make mistakes everyday, and I am sure every mistake I make will probably be on CNN or Good Morning America. I am only human people and I love you for still loving me.”