Alyssa Scott marked Valentine's Day with an emotional post about her late son, Zen, who passed away in December at 5-months-old.
The model, 28, welcomed Zen on July 23, 2021 with Nick Cannon, 41.
"I can imagine us the night before Valentine’s Day filling out cards to hand to your classmates. All signed with your handwriting.. I know it would say: love, Zen. Every letter written with your tiny little hand," the model captioned a carousel of photos and video featuring Zen in a fuzzy bear onesie covered in lipstick kiss prints.
The model, 28, welcomed Zen on July 23, 2021 with Nick Cannon, 41. In August, he was diagnosed with glioma, a rare and aggressive form of brain cancer.
Cannon said chemotherapy for Zen was a treatment option that was discussed for Zen.
“We were having quality-of-life conversations,” he told People in December. “We could have had that existence where he would’ve had to live in the hospital, hooked up to machines, for the rest of the time. From someone who’s had to deal with chemotherapy before, I know that pain. To see that happen to a 2-month-old, I didn’t want that. I didn’t want him to suffer.”
Shortly after Zen’s passing, Cannon praised Scott for her strength.
“I often think about your voice. The sound of you saying ‘I love you mom’ Words I will never hear, But still feel to this day. I know you love me, Zen. You are everywhere,” Scott continued in her caption. “I see you in everything beautiful. When I hear a baby giggle, when I see children playing. You are there. If I had one wish it would be to hold you. I know everything around me would stand still. It would be just you and me.”
Scott wrote that her last words to her son were, “I’m here, I love you.”
“That will ring true until the end of time,” she wrote. “I’m here and I love you baby. Im just missing you extra today. My son. You are all of my dreams realized.”
Cannon has recently been on the receiving end of critical commentary after announcing the impending arrival of his eighth child with model Bre Tiesi less than two months after the loss of Zen.
He apologized on a recent episode of "The Nick Cannon Show."
“It was a lot going on, I didn’t know how to explain it, I didn’t know what to say, so I was probably talking too fast, and I misspoke,” Cannon said on his show earlier this month. “I know I can do better when dealing with delicate and sensitive discussions.”
The soon-to-be dad of eight shares twin boys, Zion and Zillion, born in June 2021, with DJ Abby De La Rosa. He has son, Golden, 4, and daughter, Powerful Queen, 1, with Brittany Bell and is also dad to twins, Monroe and Moroccan, 10, with ex-wife Mariah Carey.
“I’m like a seahorse,” he joked to Power 106 Los Angeles in July 2021, while talking to rap duo JT and Yung Miami. “I’m having these kids on purpose. I don’t have no accident!”