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Title: The White Room and Internal Isolation View count: 205 Rating: 5.0 (5 ratings) Description: Volcano - Damien Rice. Love it. (Yes, that brief echo is intentional.) Touch. Humans are social animals who mingle like crazy, but people hardly ever talk to randoms on the bus. And man is it irritating when you get bumped. Lol, listen to me struggling to recall names. I'm trying to pay more attention, but I'm just socially very slow. White. I got pulled halfway out of this reality and saw myself in some sterile room, whilst at the same time I was still sitting on the grass watching traffic. Interesting that despite not feeling connected to my body, I still think I had it in that white room. Mark. Had been watching my odd behaviour for a bit and eventually came and sat down for a chat. 35 year old guy, confirms my suspicion that I can (mostly) only talk to people who are older than me and male. I think if I met me, I would find me just as annoying as any other 21 year old female. This may be why I have so much trouble getting on with myself. Ha! Seriously though, I've always had trouble with people my age and gender. This is why I asked for a male psychotherapist, but noooooooooooo, those are hard to come by. Is it just that I happen to be a crap age? Could be. No one my age is a fun teacher or a fossil shop owner or an awesome songwriter. Ah, now I remember some more stuff we chatted about. Had to do with the makeup thing. I think Mark was talking more of people being insecure about their appearances even when they're "beautiful" already. But it gave me the chance to talk about why I dress up, and the way people do judge you by your appearance, so it's the fastest way to send them a message. Much to my relief, Mark had similar ideas about all that. I suppose having had a bunch of strokes and not being able to do what he used to, he gets a bit of intolerance from people who don't bother to understand. Anyway, he was a cool guy, upfront, interested in the person behind the appearance, which is how more people should be. I wasn't actually sad btw. I was just so lost in thought, I didn't realise what I looked like. That happens to me a lot. Oh and I still really don't like that "Live" song. I just like the juxtaposition next to "Going Under". Death and Life. Fun. Though for me it'll be, AWESOME SONG, followed by "oh... this shit again..." It's gonna be a bit like bipolar disorder flipped out of phase... And yes, I realise the title of this video is more exciting than the actual content. Tags: social, humanity?, connection, to, reality, and, minds, Author: DestroyerMariko |
