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Title: Laura: Love of my Life, & others lost. PT (3of 4) View count: 432 Rating: 5.0 (2 ratings) Description: This started out to be just about Laura, but decided I could add other photos of loved ones lost. I'm glad to say Laura is alive and well and now a mother of a little baby girl born July 2009. The wedding photo, left is my brother Mike who we lost at 47 on 8/28/05 to ALS. This photo taken 6/20/98, and in blue Bobby Higgins who passed away in 2007 at 48 from ALS, and on the three wheeler is my cousin John Gregory Burell (Greg) who passed away at 38 May 24, 2008. Charlie the Golden Retriever passed away in 2006, and was loved by Laura and I. The photo's of Laura and I were taken in 1992, and in 2003. The two of us together were taken before or after church Easter Sunday that year. The beautiful ones of her in red were taken on one of our first dates, and I guess you can see one of the reasons I was so in love with her. She is way more than that, and just as beautiful on the inside as well. The first picture is nothing but Magical, and the pool pictures with that smile and those baby blues. What can I say, Wow! God, I loved you so much!! When I heard what you were going through I just wanted to be there for you as I always had been, and it didn't make me smile and only sad. We talked many times about this in the past, and you had to know that it would happen to you as well. (Karma) you left (TLC) for (GLC), and in the end he left you for another and left you pregnant with child. I loved you unconditionally, and you knew that all along, and I always stood up for you and by you. Though you can't say the same, and that's all I ever wanted was the same in return though no one ever stood up for me, and you're not alone. I would have never left you as you already know, and I wanted so much to be a father and would have been a really great daddy. You may have a hard road ahead as a single mother, and the sad part is your child may not have a father around but I know you understand this very well. I know you are strong, and If you had just believed in me as much as I believed in you and us. AMP was not a joke, and we had such a bright future but you threw it all away and just walked away. It broke my heart beyond repair, and destroyed me in every way. The man who loved you for you, good and bad. Why? for (GLC)? What a guy, and with Charlie I can't even describe that one. (Shame) You only made it about 5 years with him, and 11 with me. Maybe you will take some time to think about the differences between him and I, the do's and did not's because he's nothing like me. I was learning so much more about him as time went by, the house, your car, etc, and it told me so much more. You don't know what you have until it's gone, and that was a big difference between us as I knew what we had and I begged so hard trying to stop you before it was to late. Though I didn't know about GLC at the time, and found out to late thanks to DS. I wasn't smart enough to see it at the time, and I signed it all away to you and sold everything to give you the money so you could have evrything. You will truly find no winners here, because I lost and always knew what I was loosing. Now you have the rest of your life to think about what you have done and lost as well, and was he truly worth the love you lost with me? At least I had goals, and I tried so hard to make you proud and to give you everything you ever wanted and deserved, though that is all gone now and I have nothing more. I tried to be the best I could be, and I owed that to you and to myself as well. I make no apologies for that one, but in turn I also wished I had done some things differently as well. I have learned to never count on anyone, and to trust no one ever again. That's what I'm left with. I hold no anger and never did, and only a broken heart and dreams. I never stopped dreaming or thinking about you, and only wished we were still together because when I think of where we would be today, family, success, etc. I want you to know Pumpski it was worth loosing it all for the years I had with you, because I lived a lifetime with you. We really did have some great times in love and laughter, but all I was left with in the end was the memories and the pain of it all. All I ever wanted was to spend the rest of my life with you, and no other. That's why I made that promise to you on 6/20/98, and I never turned my back on you. I wish you well Laurachelle, and after everything I'm still in love with you, and missed you very much. I want you to know that nothing really mattered anyway after you left, not even life itself. Sorry baby, I tried the best I could, honest Love, Ronald.... (NOTE to All) When you leave the one you love who loves you for the one you like, the one you like will leave you for the one they love. It's not a matter of if, and it's only a matter of when. It's called Karma, good and bad. What goes around comes around in time. Tags: atlanta, karma, catholic, stamford, ct, media, specialist, greg, burell, jonesboro, high, love, (elvis, always, on, my, mind, youtube, version, 2:11, watch, it), forrest, gump, (jenny), carlito's, way, evanescence, immortal, there's, something, about, mary, laura, garth, brooks, the, dance, Author: AtlantaMobileProd |
