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Title: Faith (a Jonas Brothers story) - Chapter 141 View count: 505 Rating: 4.9 (10 ratings) Description: I got the results of my finals back and I did pretty well! I'm so happy! --- I pack my stuff quickly, I don't have much that I need. Nothing personal that I want to take with me either. I take my bag and walk out of the room. Jordan is staring at some pictures on the wall. "Is that you?" she asks, pointing at a picture of me and my dad when I was six. "Yeah, I was like, six or something." I mumble. "You were adorable." Jordan smiles. "Thanks." I smile. "I'll carry that." Jordan says, pointing at my bag. "You don't need to." I mumble. "Okay, we should go down, they're waiting for us." Jordan says. I nod and we go downstairs. My dads standing in the hall, holding a letter in his hand. "This if for you two. They told us to give it to you when you two were together again." My dad says and he hands the letter to me. I look at it. It says Jessica Summer Lahaye and Joyce Brooke Lahaye in a script very similar to my own. "Are we going to read it now?" Jordan asks me. "Yes." I whisper. She nods and takes the letter from me. She opens it and we start reading. To my beloved daughters, I don't know when you get to read this, but I'll be long gone by then. I want you to know, that I am not leaving you two willingly. If I could have it any other way, I would stay with you. I love you more than anything else on this planet. I never saw you, never hold you, but I already love you more than my own life. The day the doctor told me I was pregnant was the happiest day in my life. My life that will end in about 9 days. I am writing this letter to tell you girls why I have to leave you. I am ill. I have been since the day I was born. I have a rare autoimmune disease. There are medicines that would keep me alive, but there is no cure. However, the medicines have only a 50% chance of working. And they kill your babies. And as soon as symptoms of the disease show, you have to take the pills. You can live to see 70 with this disease, if you live your life healthy and are lucky. Most of us are not lucky. The moment I heard I was pregnant I stopped taking my meds. I knew this would kill me, I never was a very healthy child and the meds were the only thing that were keeping me going. But I couldn't kill you. Not my babies. I loved you the moment I heard you were there. I couldn't lose you. You were the only good thing in my life. I always wanted babies and now I have you two. I am willing to give my life so you two can live. The doctors said I should've gotten an abortion, not only because this pregnancy will kill me, but also because you two will have the disease too. Maybe youll never get sick, some of us are lucky like that. But you two both have the genes. You two are both carriers of this horrible thing. I am sorry to pass that problem on to you. This was never my intention. I love you both more than anything in this world and I wish that I could find a way to spare you two. But I can't. I am selfish. I want to be a mother, even if it's just for a few hours before I die. I want to know that I gave the world my best. Cause I know you two will be perfect. I really hope you will have a good life. The perfect life I never had. Most of the time life tried to bring me down, but I got through it. And it brought me you. The worst mistake in my life gave me the best thing ever. The thing I always wanted. I have to leave you, but know I will never leave your hearts. Know that your sister is always there for you, no matter what. And I will be there too, watching over you. I will have to miss your first words, your first loves, your first heartbreaks, your first children. I wont be able to be there, but know I'll be watching. I love you Mom ----- Please comment, it really makes me happy! Awesome people: Shay081793, madison50364, adventurous18, bookofathousandwords, BexDee Tags: jonas, brothers, story, faith, gioiaxpianogirlx, kevin, nick, joe, Author: gioiaxpianogirlx |
