TODAY   |  February 17, 2013

Pistorius’ slain girlfriend: ‘I’m gonna miss you’

"I'm gonna miss you all so much! And I love you very, very much,” Reeva Steenkamp, slain girlfriend of Paralympian Oscar Pistorius, said in a show that aired after she was found shot to death. NBC’s Michelle Kosinski reports.

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>>> the family of disgraced olympic track star, oscar pistorius , is denying charges that he murdered his girlfriend. this morning, we are learning more about her from her own words. michelle kosinski is in pretoria, south africa , where he is being held.

>> reporter: reeva steenkamp's reality show aired here last night, to many, too painful to watch. many are quoting police sources saying she was shot through the bathroom door of his home. his family speaking out strongly refuting that this was murder.

>> you literally fall in love with jamaica. you fall in love with being in love with love. it is love everywhere.

>> reporter: this is reeva steenkamp living her dream.

>> i don't have any regrets. i don't have any bitterness. i take home with me so many amazing memories and things that are in here and that are in here that i'll treasure forever. i think the way that you got asked, not just your journey in life, the way you act when you make your exit is so important, you made an impact in a positive way or a negative way. at the jail, his pistorius father and uncle visited. his uncle spoke.

>> we are in shock about this beautiful girl we have gotten to know well and deeply. they had plans together. oscar was happy in his private life than he seemed in a long time. oscar, as you can imagine, is also numb with shock and grief. we have no doubt here there is no substance for litigation and that the state's own case, including its own forensic evidence strongly refutes any possibility of a premedicated murder or murder as such.

>> reporter: unconfirmed details of what allegedly happened valentine's day morning swarm in the press here. newspapers are now publishing what they say are reeva's notes from a speech she was said to give at a school that day. i was in an abusive relationship, she wrote, from the time before she dated pistorius. i lost a lot of self-worth. it took some serious soul searching to remind myself of this value in this world.

>> just always be true to yourself. i'm going to miss you all so much. i love you very, very much.

>> reporter: remember, police have been pretty dismissive of suggestions that this might have been mistaken identity or self-defense. there were reports of what sounded like shouting coming from the home earlier that night. lester.