Demi Moore: 'I have a love-hate relationship with my body'

Jan. 4, 2012 at 1:08 PM ET

It's hard to believe that Demi Moore might have any criticism of her own body, being that she's among the most fit 49-year-olds out there. But the actress is admitting that she hasn't always been happy with her looks.

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"I have had a love-hate relationship with my body. When I’m at the greatest odds with my body, it’s usually because I feel my body’s betraying me," Moore said in the new issue of Harper's Bazaar magazine. "Whether that’s been in the past, struggling with my weight and feeling that I couldn’t eat what I wanted to eat, or that I couldn’t get my body to do what I wanted it to do."

Moore has been in the spotlight even more than usual lately, since she announced that she'd be splitting from husband Ashton Kutcher. That makes her comments about fears of abandonment all the more poignant. Moore went on to say, "I used to think that what scared me was the idea of being abandoned until someone said to me, 'Only children can be abandoned. Adults can't be abandoned because we have a choice. Children don't have a choice.' So I started to rethink. 'Okay, it's not that. What's the underlying thread that really scares me?' I think what scares me is not having the courage to reach my full potential."

Ultimately, Moore said that she has a refreshed outlook on what's ahead and what freedom is for her. "Letting go of the outcome. Truly being in the moment. Not reflecting on the past. Not projecting into the future. That's freedom," Moore told the magazine. "Not caring more about what other people think than what you think. That's freedom."

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