Jan. 9, 2013 at 11:47 AM ET
Just a little over two weeks after announcing her separation from husband and reality TV co-star Jason Hoppy, Bethenny Frankel visited "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" and opened up about the "excruciating" experience.
"Do I want to be doing this exact thing right now?" Frankel said, questioning her own decision to go on a talk show so soon after the split. "No, but I can't just only be on reality TV and show everything when it's the 'fairy-princess fairy tale' and then not take my hits when I have to. I've had kind of the best-worst year ever. So I have to (take) the highs and the lows."
In this case, though, the low is hitting Frankel harder than she anticipated.
"Just going through something personal, you have so many different emotions," she said through tears. "I feel like a bit of a disappointment to all of you, and I feel like a failure. … I don't know how people go through this because this is excruciating, I have to say."
But ultimately, she plans to figure how to get through the same way she's figured out much of her life over the last few years -- in the public eye.
"I never wanted to be a role model, but (to) some people I am or have been," she explained. "So this is an important time, because it’s about what I do next. How I handle myself now with grace, with dignity. This is the time now that matters."
Fans of the "Bethenny Ever After" star will get to see how she manages that as she shares her ups and down on her new talk show "Bethenny," which will air nationwide later this year.
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