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Ali Fedotowsky: I had 'two breakdowns' in first month as a new mom

Ali Fedotowsky is continuing her candor about motherhood.

The former "Bachelorette" star, who welcomed daughter Molly last month with fiancé Kevin Manno, described the family's first month together as "a mix of emotions."

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Ali Fedotowsky and Kevin Manno arrive at Children Mending Hearts and Vintage Grocers Presents the 8th Annual "Empathy Rocks" on June 12, 2016 in Beverly Hills, California.

"The first couple weeks were exhausting but I was running on adrenaline so I really felt like I was on cloud nine," Fedotowsky wrote in a blog post. "They were the most exciting and wonderful weeks of my life."

By the third week, sleep deprivation kicked in. Molly was "cluster feeding a lot and she was waking up every 1.5-2 hours to feed during the night," wrote Fedotowsky.

"I could barely keep my eyes open during the day I was so exhausted." she wrote.

"I had two breakdowns that week," the new mom confessed. The first happened when Fedotowsky became frustrated by the debate over the safety of vaccinations. "I cried my eyes out to Kevin while watching Molly sleep because I just wanted some 'all knowing' doctor to tell us what to do. To tell us what's best for Molly," she wrote.

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The next night Fedotowsky broke down because her beloved dog Owen wasn't getting enough attention. "It breaks my heart when he looks at me with his puppy dog eyes while I'm feeding Molly and I can't go to him. I have to put Molly first and to be honest it's hard sometimes," she wrote.

"If you've never had a dog then you might think I'm crazy," she continued. "But all you dog lovers out there are totally going to understand where I'm coming from."

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Overall, the family is "super happy," wrote Fedotowsky, and have already taken in a Dodgers game together.

They're also getting more sleep now. "I think trying to stretch out her feeding to every 2.5-3 hours has really helped. I used to feed her EVERY time she cried. Now we try to figure out if she needs something else before feeding her," wrote Fedotowsky.

"We are all learning every single day what works best for Molly," she wrote.

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