June 28, 2013 at 3:02 PM ET
Rapper Eminem admits in a new documentary that his abuse of prescription drugs almost killed him. "My bottom was going to be death," the rapper said in an interview in "How to Make Money Selling Drugs," a 2013 documentary.
(Warning: The film excerpt is expletive-filled.)
The musician talks about how his first Vicodin was a revelation for him since it made him feel "mellow" and also took away his pain.
Friends tried to warn him that he was in trouble, Eminem said, but he pushed them away since he didn't view prescription drug abuse as the same as using crack or heroin.
“I would say, ‘Get that (expletive) person outta here,’ ” he said in the film. “I can’t believe they said that (expletive) to me. ... I literally thought I could control (my drug problem)."
Soon the specific drugs didn't matter. "You're taking things that people are giving you that you don't even know what the (expletive) they are," Eminem said. "Xanax, Valium, tomato, to-mah-to."
The drugs caught up to the rapper and he had to be hospitalized. "Had I got to the hospital about two hours later, I would have died," he recalls in the film. "My organs were shutting down. My liver, kidneys, everything. They were gonna have to put me on dialysis, they didn’t think I was gonna make it. My bottom was gonna be death."
After leaving the hospital, Eminem relapsed within a month. "I remember just walking around my house and thinking every single day, like, I'm gonna (expletive) die." The rapper said he didn't sleep for three weeks, "not even for an (expletive) minute," and had to regain the ability to walk and speak.
"I just couldn’t believe that anybody could be naturally happy or naturally function or be just enjoying life in general without being on something," he said. "So I would say to anybody, ‘It does get better.'"
Bert Marcus and "Entourage" star Adrian Grenier produced the film, which includes interviews with Susan Sarandon and Woody Harrelson.