Nov. 5, 2013 at 7:46 AM ET
Journalist and eight-time Emmy award winner Lu Ann Cahn decided to give her life a jump-start by endeavoring to try something totally new every day for an entire year. In "I Dare Me," she documents her "Year of Firsts." Here's an excerpt.
Before I started my Year of Firsts, I was stuck.
From the outside, my life at age fifty-three looked fine. I had a good job. I had plenty of accomplishments as a journalist. My marriage of twenty-five-plus years was stable. Physically, there was nothing wrong. And yet in 2009 everything was wrong. I felt lost, angry, and frustrated.
The economy was tanking. My job as an investigative reporter at a local television station in Philadelphia was changing. Friends I loved were moving. Longtime coworkers were leaving. Reporting resources were shrinking. Budgets were being cut. I resented the new technology and social media I was being asked to embrace at work. “I don’t text!” I would snarl. “Facebook is for morons.”
I stubbornly tried to do things the way I’d always done them, but I felt like I was beating my head against a wall. It was exhausting. For the first time in my life I felt old and out of touch. Worst of all, I didn’t like this version of myself. I had survived having my entire large intestine removed when I was thirty-three. I had survived breast cancer at thirty-five. I survived kidney cancer at age forty-five. I should have been dancing every day like Gene Kelly in Singing in the Rain just to be breathing, right? But I wasn’t.
Perhaps it was because I had survived all of that that I was even more distressed. Days, weeks, and months were going by and I wasn’t appreciating and enjoying them. I didn’t want to get out of bed. I also knew being stressed and unhappy for that long wasn’t good for my head or my health. And I didn’t have time to move to Italy to go find myself, or meditate on my navel in Bali. Still, something had to give: I had to figure out how to get unstuck.
My smart, tech-savvy twenty-three-year-old daughter was worried about me. She hadn’t really seen me like this before.
She pushed me.
“Maybe you need a new creative outlet,” Alexa suggested.
“Maybe,” I said.
“Maybe you should start a blog.” Now, she was bugging me.
“What the hell is a blog?”
“An online journal. You can write about anything.”
It just sounded like more work to me. And I had no idea what I’d write about. I couldn’t think of just one thing that would keep my interest. Still, for some reason I mulled it over. Maybe my daughter was right, I thought. Maybe I could blog. Maybe I could write about doing a lot of new things.
“What if I try something new every week? I’ll write about that.”
My daughter was having none of it. “No, something new every day!”
Now there was a crazy idea.
“Start making a list of things you’ve never done,” she said. “They don’t have to be big things like skydiving. Instead, don’t swear for a day. Eat vegetarian for a day. Stuff like that.”
There it was. The idea scared and excited me at the same time. I knew that was a good sign. Just like that, my Year of Firsts was born.
And that’s how I found myself running into the freezing ocean at full speed on New Year’s Day 2010. Surprise—it turns out that there’s a perfectly good reason that sane people do something as insane as the Polar Bear Plunge: It’s exhilarating!
It’s a full-on slap-in-the-face wake-up call. I ran out of the water soaked, shaken, and proud. It was the first of 365 Firsts.
For every day that year, I did something that I had never done before and blogged about it at luanncahn.com. When I could, I captured each First on video in all its goofy, seat-of-my-pants glory. I also established a few ground rules:
My daughter was wrong; it wasn’t easy to find a First every day. But she was also right. I needed this. I’d forgotten how much fun it is to try something new. It didn’t take much time before I was excited to get up every morning. I knew that I was going to do something that day for the very first time.
What did I learn? Firsts are the antidote for being stuck.
My Firsts ranged from riding a mechanical bull to rapelling into an underground cave. I spoke to a complete stranger on the street. I smoked my first cigar. I shoveled horse manure. I learned to surf. I took a drum lesson from a famous ’80s rocker. I spent time in a wheelchair. I attempted to experience blindness. I ate dessert for an entire day (I do not recommend this).
Some Firsts were pivotal moments, like going back to school. Many Firsts were just what I could find on the fl y, like walking my dog Angel backwards one day. Some were painful parts of real life, like the day I had to put Angel to sleep. And still others were whatever I could work into my crazy-busy schedule as a journalist, TV personality, speaker, wife, and mom.
No, I didn’t join the Peace Corps or run with the bulls in Pamplona. But, as I discovered during the year, it’s the smallest changes that eventually change everything: They got me “unstuck.”
They brought the life back into my life. And they also made me realize something incredibly important: Firsts don’t have to be big, dramatic, and risky to recharge and reinvent your life. By just trying small things, you begin to see the world around you with fresh, child’s eyes. Doing Firsts retrains us, takes what might seem predictable and smothering, and transforms it into something filled with learning, fun, and possibility.
Word of my Year of Firsts experience quickly grew online. More than eighty thousand people watched my videos on You-Tube and I was able to share with thousands of others through NBC 10 (where I worked), Facebook, and Twitter. Dozens of viewers and fans offered ideas, lessons, suggestions, and support to “Keep going!,” and some even invited me to come share a First experience with them!
But one of the most exciting things that happened was that people didn’t just watch me do Firsts—they started doing them too. And this is why I wrote I Dare Me.
My hope is I Dare Me dares you! I want you to look at your world with new eyes, to make your own list of Firsts, to stop waiting for someone to rescue you from whatever you can’t control and to rescue yourself with something new every day. That’s how your life starts to change, one First at a time.
Reprinted from I Dare Me by Lu Ann Cahn by arrangement with Perigee, a member of Penguin Group (USA) LLC, a Penguin Random House company, Copyright © 2013 by Lu Ann Cahn